Hey what’s good everyone, it’s Motoki
and this is my draw my life video. Even though I’ve been making videos for
years now I never made one of these so I figured eh why not. On December 3rd, 1996 I was born in the state
of Ohio. which this weird looking state in the middle-ish
of the united states, it’s pretty cool I guess. Before I was born, I had a life expectancy
of only 20% but luckily it worked out and I’m here today. My mom told me I was so big as a baby that
right after I was born the nurse told her that I looked like a sumo wrestler which is
a bit racist but you know whatever I guess. I should mention that my mom is Japanese and
my dad is white, they we’re both english teachers and ended up meeting each other in
Japan after they were assigned to work on a project together. I know right so cute. Anyways, in addition to my mom and dad when
I was born I had an older brother, and sister. But before my parents had us, they made a
pact that one day when they had kids, they would have them experience both of their home
countries. And that’s exactly what happened, after
4 years of living in Ohio my family and I flew over to Japan to start a whole new life. I had to learn Japanese, make new friends,
and live in an entirely different country that I didn’t know anything about. Luckily, I caught on pretty fast though and
it ended up being a great time. The only problem I ever had was when I occasionally
got bullied in school for being the white kid. The school I went to didn’t have any other
foreigners so naturally, some kids thought it would be fun to pick on the weird pale
kid. From an early age I was forced to learn that
despite what I looked like or what people said about me, I was still going to be the
same person so I stopped caring so much what others thought. I lived in Japan for about 3 years before
moving back to Ohio. But instead of moving back to where I was
born we lived across the state a really small town that didn’t have much going on. The most exciting thing to do in the
whole town was go to Walmart, and that says a lot. Moving back to America was a bit difficult. Not too bad or anything but I had to relearn
English which I had completely forgotten because by the time I moved back, I was speaking and
even thinking in only Japanese. Even though my teacher told my parents that
I might have to stay back a grade, I caught up pretty fast and luckily, didn’t have
to. I had a lot of fun as a kid, I ended up joining
a small group of friends who were great, I played baseball and soccer and had great time. I did sometimes get made fun of for being
the only Asian looking kid but that kinda got old. When I was in grade school, I wanted to be
an actor. Whenever I watched movies or tv shows with
younger actors, I was super jealous and always wanted to be just like them because I thought
they were so cool. I even started acting in all of the school
plays that I could. Around middle school I found this website
called YouTube where I saw these hilarious YouTubers called Ryan Higa and Kevin Wu, also
known as nigahiga and KevJumba. I thought that they were so funny and awesome,
and I instantly wanted to make videos like them. So one day I got a group a friends together
and we filmed probably one of the worst videos to ever ever be created but I had such a fun
time. I’m glad I never posted it on YouTube though,
I was actually a couple years under YouTube’s age requirement of being 13 which I know a
lot of people don’t pay attention to but at the time I thought that somehow they’d
figure it out and put me in jail or something I don’t know. High school came along and I joined theater,
speech, joined a bunch of clubs, became VP of my class, played soccer, And got involved
in the church that my dad was a pastor in. Although I enjoyed a lot of what I did, after
a couple years, I ended up dropping most of it after realizing I was doing them just to
please my parents. Which is why I tried so hard to get good grades
and do all the extracurriculars. I think that this is one the reasons why to
this day I feel so self conscious whenever doing anything because I’m afraid of letting
people down. While all this was happening in high school
I started posting occasional videos on my youtube channels and they started getting
some views and subscribers which I thought was like the coolest thing ever. This motivated me and I started having big
hopes for my future. I told myself that one day, I’m going to
live in Los Angeles and pursue a career in the entertainment industry. Which was great and all but for someone living
in a small town in Ohio, I didn’t know if that was even remotely realistic but I didn’t
care. I should also mention that sometime around
here I started to date a girl, we’ll call her, Barbara. It was your typical young high school relationship
I guess, I fell head over heels for Barbara, we had some good times. However, we didn’t see eye to eye on a lot
of things and looking back, it wasn’t a healthy relationship. I moved away to LA for college which was my
dream come true. But because of that, long distance didn’t
work out, we lost feelings for each other, and after a year together we broke up. And for me at the time, it was hard, I wasn’t
really ready for things to end and she started seeing someone else right after which just
made me feel terrible about myself. To keep my mind off things I stayed busy with
my college work where I studied film and tv production. Soon after I met some of the coolest I know
and I don’t know what I would have done without them. They made me feel confident and happy which
pushed me to make YouTube videos again even though I had practically stopped. From there I started to push myself to see
where this whole online video thing could take me. Seeing other people who had made it their
full-time job, inspired me to see if I could do that myself. Sadly, not everyone was for that as much as
I was. Like most parents, mine, don’t really understand
the whole online world so well. And to this day, they still don’t fully
understand what I do. They know that I make videos but it’s hard
for them to grasp that it’s not just some weird little hobby but that there is more
to it. And as much as it hurts me to say, on many
occasions through the years, my mom has told me that she thinks my videos are stupid. She’s told me that they’re a waste of my
time and how she thinks there’s no value in them. It’s rough having one of the people you
trust the most tell you how pointless they think your passion is. My dad is a little more carefree when it comes
to my endeavors and my mom has gotten a bit better over time. What I’ve had to come to understand is that
she would only say those things to me because it was her way of trying to look out for me
and her way of showing she was worried about my future. I love my parents, they’ve done so much
for me and I will forever be grateful for that. I joke a lot in my videos about how I’m
such a disappoint to them but honestly, I think that’s just my way of coping with
the fear that I’ll let them down somehow. And that pretty much brings us up to speed
to where I am today. I’m only 20 so this draw my life is still
a work in a progress. I’m still working on videos, which is super
dope. Luckily for me, I have people like you all
who watch them so thank you so much. Thanks for helping me have a reason to smile
each and every day knowing that there are people out there who believe in me. I’m not sure what my future looks like but
who does right? I’m still in college right now, not really
sure if I’ll finish though, there’s a lot that I want to work on and pursue full-time
but I can’t because it’s impossible to do everything. I’m looking forward to what’s to come
and I can’t wait to take you all with me. Listen I don’t think I’m someone to look
up to at all or anything but if there’s anything I want you to take from this, it’s
that you can do whatever you want to do. Don’t shut others out, but ultimately, do
what you want to do, if it’s what will make you happy. Don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t
do something because YOU make that decision. If you live your whole life trying to please
others or worrying what people will think of you, you’re not living. Anyways, thanks so much again for watching,
it means a lot to me. Hope you have a great day.